Introduction

Don't get me wrong. I LOVE BEING A MOM!

My four children fill me with joy, love, and laughter. They give me purpose to life.

They grow, learn, and develop their own personalities. The scary part is... they are learning from you. They are watching your every move. When they get old enough they are reading your text messages full of F bombs and you telling your husband how annoying they have been that day. Your walls are full of boogers and crayons drawings. When you walk through your house you will at least have one piece of chewed up food on the bottom of your foot.

Now let me repeat I LOVE BEING A MOM and I miss sleep. I remember when my oldest son was born. First time mom and I'm freaking about if he's breathing the whole night in his hospital plastic bed while his father is snoring away. Moms worry. So yes I was hovering over my son after being up for 28 hours in labor followed by an emergency c section. The worry never goes away. Even when they are all asleep you worry yourself in your sleep. You worry about the things you said to your children throughout the day. If it's going to scar them for life because you made them sit at the table and try your Vegan Alfredo that you got off Pinterest. You worry that you didn't read to them long enough. You worry about their day at school. Motherhood is full of worry and worry turns into no sleep for you.

I read a lotof blogs about the joys of motherhood and I follow a lot of moms on Instagram and I have a lot of mom friends. I think moms alike are afraid to show the realities of motherhood. The hardships, the engorged boobs, the judgement they may face for posting something real, and then there is me. I am the mom who was the first time mom who wanted to do everything perfect. I  wanted to breast feed (which is was successful at with all of my children), I wanted to cloth diaper (not so successful) I wanted to be the "perfect mom." Google was my best friend and I drove myself insane. The I became a parent of more than one and reality set in.

There is no perfect mom.

We all have slip ups and are afraid to admit it because of "mom wars." We are all afraid to post about our children and the mistakes we make because of the judgement. Not me. I am here for the reality of motherhood. All of it.

The Good.

The Bad. and

The Evil.

Enjoy.